If you haven’t noticed by now, I’m pretty flighty when it comes to finishing projects. I can and do finish projects but only a first draft. I have a weird psychological, Mozart complex where, while I don’t think my writing is perfect by a long shot, I have SUCH a hard time revising and editing anything I write while doing it on my own. Workshops in college helped a lot. I also find it easier to edit short stories than full manuscripts.
That being said, I have a lot of stress and things to think about over the next 5 weeks. In 5 weeks, I’ll be moving 700 miles away from all of my friends and family (yahoo! on the family bit) and living completely on my own away from the cushion of college for the first time. Because of that, and many other psychological ticks that I have, I am finding it very hard/impossible to revise my full manuscript as planned. I have it all printed, I have ideas and notes written all over the place…I just can’t do it right now. Not on my own, at least.
So, to push through any dumb writer’s block my mind is tricking my into thinking I have, I am going to polish off some short stories I’ve written during college and also new ones since I graduated a year and a half ago, and get them submission ready. I want to submit to magazines and journals as much as I can until something gets picked up and I can finally accomplish something that I’ve been dying to do since I was 12 years old: call myself a PUBLISHED author. I feel like it will do a great deal for my mental state and self-esteem when it comes to my writing ability as well. (My writing ability, in my eyes, has greatly waned since I graduated, as I haven’t written anything of significance since then, unable to focus on a single project on top of other life stresses.)
I hope this will work out for me, and I cannot wait to post everywhere across social media when I officially get published. The story I’m working on right now is titled “The Blue Plains of Oblivion” and it is a love story (star-crossed lovers style) in a surreal setting!